Hate you?

Things I hate about you:
1. I have to say goodbye not see you again
2. I have to use "haha" so you think I'm fine
3. I have to keepyour promise when you never remember it
4. I have to feel guilty every time to be indifferent to you
5. I have to continue to feel pain remembering the past when you come again
6. I had to realize all that we've been through, it was a fake
7. I must regret the fact that you never meant what you said
8. I have to smile so you think I've forgotten all the pain
9. I have to care about your heart even if it means I hurt mine
10. I must admit all the things that make me hate you make me love you more!!

T.T aku benci kamuuuu.. gmn donk? Hope i still have one reason for always love you!!